Diluted

I've always felt diluted in terms of my disability. I'm not very autistic, but I'm not independent enough that I don't need help. I can find a job, but I can't really keep it. Why? Because I miss social cues I guess. It's not like I can't find a job, I just need help in the social aspect. But since all the social norms and rules aren't written down, I don't know what they are.

Diluted: 1. Make (a liquid) thinner or weaker by adding water or another solvent to it.
2. Make (something) weaker in force, content or value by modifying it or adding other elements to it.

That's what Merriam-Webster says. I'm not fully autistic and not fully...um...normal? But who wants to be normal? Normal is overrated. So am I less human? Nah. If I'm not less of something then I must be more of something! That's right, I'm a better human being than most people. Wa ha ha ha ha! Forget X-men, I'm the next step in evolution. Ugh, Okay enough of that joke.

I definitely don't have a disease, it's not something that can be "cured" in the normal sense. Maybe it's more like a birth mark. Just something you have to live with. LOL.