Overload

Ugh, sometimes I just have these overloads in my head. It's like my brain's on fire. This really happens whenever my tech isn't working like my computer. Which makes me mad and causes me to lash out at people. I just hate it when my stuff doesn't work!! It frustrates me to no end. I gotta get my head cool. I'm going to take a break.

Don't say "no" until you know

I've been feeling a lot better lately. I've tried focusing on the little things and getting those things done. You know, "you have been faithful in the small things, now you can be trusted with the big things" kind of idea.
I got a part time job as a security officer which is great. I always address the guy as "sir" to be more professional. I mainly do it because I have a tendency to be too friendly with people and that gets me into trouble.
Now, I'm going to see a new company that's going to replace my old job aid people. I'm still a little nervous but I won't say "no" until I know.

Taco Bell interview

Today, I got to the interview twenty minutes early. I was let in even though they weren't open and told to wait. I asked one of the workers if I could buy a drink, it was a bad idea to have pizza for breakfast. They man was nice enough to let me have the drink for free. After finishing my second drink, I began to chew on the ice as I wondered why Taco Bell was playing nice music. It wasn't anything fancy, it just seemed...higher brow than what you would expect at a fast food restaurant. It wasn't radio music, there wasn't any lyrics, just instruments. That's when the problems started, the manager came up to me while I was chewing on the ice. New rule: Don't eat ice at an interview. Besides that, the interview went well, I'm hoping to have a job soon.

Bank phone interview

About three weeks ago, I had a phone interview with a bank. Whenever the interviewer would ask me to provide examples of experiences (Like how did I handle this situation or how did that situation turn out) I would reference a job experience that they apparently did not have on file. I don't know if I just didn't provide all my job references or if they didn't have all of them but I kept on confusing the interviewer. In fact, I wrongly blurted out that I had volunteered at Kroger which is a ridiculous concept on it's own. I don't know why I said I volunteered, maybe I was afraid they would be upset if I told them that I didn't work for Kroger longer that a few months.
I told my mom about the interview and the volunteer thing at Kroger that I made up "It was based on a true story" I said.

Up and Down

After having a great Saturday which carried over the week, I had to meet with someone from on of my helping agencies which brought me down. Could she talk any slower? I just wanted to get back to bed. Well, at least I played my part of being the disabled kid again. Every time I have to play that role, I feel a little more dead inside. On a different note, I'm looking for a new aid which isn't going any better. But my biggest concern, is the fact that I may not be able to go back to school because I won't have enough money. Thanks government shutdown...